Forcing the way through failure and despair

So, I need to find an apartment in Spain. It looks interesting.

I'm afraid to fail once again, to have to go to Greece, to fail there once more... But still. If I managed to get a master in solar power and if an old hyperactive friend, lacking self-confidence and accumulating failures, managed to become an engineer in marine ecology, then it's likely that the result is not the worse expected, and that I manage to find a way through the walls of failure and despair :-D .